So I’ve been feeling a bit overwhelmed.
I've been super busy, working around the clock to organise a community event for the local area.
It's been going super well, with really positive feedback, plenty of support and praise for such a worthy cause.
It's Getting close now....like 5 days to go....and with so much still to do....all those little seeds of doubt have started to creep in.
Is it going to be a success?
Will anybody actually come?
I've spoken a lot about my own personal journey, especially about anxiety, and celebrated my mini triumphs with facing fears with you all.
I know I've come on leaps and bounds from the person that didn't leave the house for weeks on end, or go anywhere without a friend in toe, but oh my goodness,
Reliving every time someone told me I wasn't good enough, or I was wrong, or it wasn't going to work, or I need to get my heads out of the clouds and stop dreaming- not nice....
And to top it all off, there has been a select few individuals who haven't been very nice at all....
Now I could wollow in self pity, hold on to the fear and take it all personally, but from this point forward I'm going prove them all wrong- and Mr self doubt can kindly pipe down!
As much i feel I'm going against every single habitual pattern I've fallen into, i believe wholeheartedly In the cause, and actually I believe in me!
All I know is I want to help people, I want people to realise there is choice and help out there in copious amounts if they want it.
Yes there is lots of doom and gloom in the world but there is also a lot of happiness, joy and life to celebrate too,
If people stopped seeing themselves as separate from one another and actually realised we are all connected, then things might actually change. We are meant to work together, help one another, and be fecking happy!
I don't have all the answers, but I do know if we work together we can do it!
I'm standing tall and standing strong..... who's with me?!
B x